And two weeks later, he finally gets back to his blog...

So, I'm still sort of hanging out with the guy I probably shouldn't be hanging out with. And he still has a boyfriend... *sigh* Someone rescue me...

Not much has really been going on in my life. Such is the life of a retail manager in the weeks prior to Christmas. It's all about work.

I was quite happy to receive a copy of WRONG THINGS in the mail today. It's a new book by Poppy Z. Brite and Caitlin Kiernan. Two short stories and one long one. Looks good. I should also be receiving a copy of Alatair Reynolds' CHASM CITY soon. Whoo hoo, new books to read. Now I need to finish the one I'm already reading...

I saw HARRY POTTER and thought it was okay. I still am not part of the great Harry Potter fan experience. I dunno, it just doesn't excite me that much. Sorry, Flynn...

More later...

I shall now ramble...

Currently reading : THRESHOLD by Caitlin R. Kiernan. She's sort of like the mad love child of Neil Gaiman and Poppy Z. Brite. I'm about halfway through it and I love the characters. Not sure exactly where it's heading, but I'm gonna enjoy the ride.

Listening to at this moment: New Order GET READY. How Old School is that? It's actually a perfect Fall album though. Me like.

So, the guy I was hanging out with almost constantly has completely disappeared. No appearrances, no phone calls, etc. It's been almost a week since I talked to him. I left one message. And that's it. I'm done. And I don't really care nearly as much as I should.

Meanwhile, danger lurks in the foreground. I seem to have become slightly enmeshed with someone else. Someone who's supposed to just be a friend. Someone who has a boyfriend. Someone whose bed I slept in last nite. We've promised to put an immediate stop to it though.

Also, in the past couple of days, I've run into two different faces from the recent past. Both of whom are people that I've promised I would call and never have. Both of whom I really should call. Both of whom I'd like to call. Why haven't I?

Guy #1 is someone I met and had an extremely brief fling with back around Mardi Gras just after his relationship of some time had ended. Then another brief fling about 6 weeks ago. He's someone who's sweet as can be. Used to be a cutie. Has been practically living in the gym the past few months and is now an absolute hottie. Extremely sweet guy. And everytime we run into each other he gives me a look that indicates a lot of interest. Hmmm.

Guy #2 is someone else I met a few months ago. Had a really nice time hanging out one night. Lives very close to me. Have run into each other a few times. Never have gotten around to doing anything else. Also gives me those beckoning looks. He has a good job, a nice house and is a Latino cutie. Why haven't I called?

Which one should I call??? *sigh* Both would make excellent friends. Both have potential beyond friends...

Well, guy #2 is going out tomorrow nite and promised me a cocktail if we run into each other...

Is there anything else as great as the rush you get when you finish the last page of a really great novel??? I think not.

I just closed the back spine of FALLEN DRAGON by Peter F. Hamilton. And I am SO happy that I didn't wait for it to come out in the US in March.

Where are the science fiction movies that are as good as the current literature??? Where... grrr...

I think I shall go roam the streets of New Orleans for the rest of the afternoon...

Feh. I feel like I have nothing interesting to relate.

Hung out with Lance a lot through Saturday. But haven't heard back from him in the last 3 days. I'm working a lot, dunno bout him. Hmmm.

One of the great quandries of my life is deciding whether I wanna have a relationship or if I just wanna be a complete slut. The fact is that I like sex a lot. And I'm not sure if I wanna just have sex with one person.

I know myself well enuff to know that I'm not capable of having a relationship that is not monogamous. I'm much too jealous of a person to share someone I love with anyone else. Even if I'm in the bed with them.

And I really really really like sex. Did I mention that? And I like variety in sex. Dunno about just having sex with one person anymore... I did it before for over six years, but I was a lot less experienced a lot less 'good at it' then. And a lot less adventuresome.

Sometimes I'm very very adventuresome now.

Anyways, I went back to work from my vacation on Sunday. Was a pretty quiet day back. Had to listen to a bit of griping about the week I was gone. But it's always good when people say, "thank god you're back!" Yesterday, I worked 12 1/2 hours. I had a morning meeting at 7 am, which turned into a 4 1/2 hour meeting. Then I had to go back to work from 3 to midnite. It was actually a very good and very productive day.

Tonight, I'm working at the 'soft opening' of our new Westbank store. The soft opening is a three hour opening that the company always does the night before the first full day of business. Friends, family and pretty much anyone else can come. Should be sort of fun, I guess.

But, I have to find someone to tape the musical episode of Buffy for me.... Grrr...

It's been a few days...

Saturday night, Lance didn't feel like going out at all, so we rented a couple movies, BLOWDRY and CATS AND DOGS and watched them at my apartment. He fell asleep on the futon during CATS AND DOGS and I had no choice but to fall asleep on top of him. At some point, we managed to stumble to my bed.

He was working Sunday, so we didn't sleep very late. I did discover that he likes to bite. I like that.

Sunday afternoon, I went to the Quarter with my friend Brian. Spent the afternoon and early evening listening to Susan Moribita spin very happy music for circuit boys. Wound up chatting up a nice couple from San Francisco for quite a while. I think the clothes they were wearing probably cost more than I made last month though. Also wound up dancing with a cute blond circuit boy for a brief time. Until his boyfriend showed up.

Monday was a terrible hangover day, but Lance called midday and forced me off the sofa to go watch K-PAX at the Palace. Not a movie I would have chosen to go see, but I quite liked it.

Tuesday, Lance and I finally got around to watching CATS & DOGS. But, we had to pause it as it was starting because someone decided that we had to have corndogs. Very endearing. Shortly after the movie ended, Lance went home b/c he wasn't feeling well.

Wednesday, I bought new comic books early in the day (New X-Men is out!), went shopping and then went to see THIRTEEN GHOSTS at the Westbank Palace. *yawn* An absolutely dreadfully boring movie. Grabbed some groceries at Super Walmart.

So, a little after 8, I headed to Flynn's house for an Edward Gorey themed cocktail party. I went early b/c I picked stuff up for him at the Super Walmart. A nice halloween early party. Saw Richard, Jonno, Gerald, Beau, his beau Grey and a bunch of other people. After the party, off to the Quarter to wander about. Ran into Dennis, which was great. Need to do more with him. Saw various and sundry people in and out of costume. Wandered about for a bit with Tom from 735. Don't get to spend time with him much. Twas nice.

Then I had a bit of an ugly scene when someone's paranoid delusions about me came spilling out in the street. Very depressing. Very bothersome. Wouldn't even think about entering into a rational discussion. *sigh*

Wandered about a bit more and then ran into Tanner, my ex's ex. He'd been out with Trent Reznor and company, but evidently ole Trent went home early. Heh. So, I gave him a ride home and chatted a bit.

Today, I've done not a damned thing. Started to sort of get depressed since I hadn't talked to Lance in almost 2 days. Dave, the ex, came by on his way out of town to drop some stuff off here. Dave's joining the Peace Corps in February and is gonna be travelling the country in the meantime. I'm gonna miss him a lot.

So, a bit ago, Lance called. Which made me happy. Except he has some potentially bad things happening in his life all of a sudden. Things that could and probably should freak me out a bit too. But, I don't feel that a bit right now. I just wanna keep seeing him as much as possible. And I'm gonna later tonight probably.

It just hit me though, that the one person I instantly wanted to call and talk a bit of this through with is Dave. And he's gone.

I live in interesting times...